amusingness

Lately, my life feels rich and fulfilled, despite all of my insecurities and shortcomings. It’s quite nice. There are also things I need to face up to. I just hope that I’ll be able to.

I saw Hannah on Thursday night. It’s been about two years since she’s been married. Time just flies! She looked really good and very happy. They’re moving to a small town by Reno, Nevada, because he got a job as a PE teacher. It’s kind of surreal to know that it’s been two years since I’ve been in contact with her. The email address that I used to keep in contact with her expired right as she got married, so I haven’t known anything. I ran into her at her sister’s wedding reception. Hazel looked just beautiful! It was quite funny though, because both Hazel and her mom had to make sure that I went over to talk to Hannah. What an awesome family.

Our conversation consisted of talking about gay people she’s met (apparently, she’s met 3 more gay men named Matt), friends in high school, the gay population at BYU, and how even though she doesn’t and can’t agree with the eternal side of being gay, she still wants to know what’s happening, who is in my life, and love them unconditionally because I do. I love people like that. They’re more concerned with my feelings as a person than any other judgment. It’s the people like her that gives the Mormon Church the amount of good press it gets. I’m also glad that she’s not stuck with her issues that she’s had since high school, like the mutilation, bad relationships, and depression. Needless to say, we had the same therapist in high school. I’m not surprised she didn’t improve with him. I can be so cynical at times.

There is a passage in the book I’m reading that reminds me so much of high-school and how much the girls and I ridiculed Ben. I got it occasionally too, but it was mostly him. The whole “boys are clueless” thing. I thought I’d share the passage because it made me giggle so. It’s from Street Magic by Tamora Pierce <3 (It’s the second book in the second series- The Circle Opens)

Rosethorn smiled crookedly. “I admit, I did also think you might take that attitude.”
“So I guess I was the last to know,” Briar grumbled.
“Of course you are. You’re a man, aren’t you?” Rosethorn asked evilly, ladling lamb and rice pilaf onto the plates. Evvy giggled, and Briar rested his head on his hands.
Not only am I doomed, but they’re going to laugh at me while doom happens, he thought, contentedly morose. Why ever did I leave Summersea?

There is so much joy and contentment in the little things. I love it.

I’ve been thinking about e-mailing Ben. I kind of doubt I’ll do it, but I would like to know what he’s up to, since the girls I normally talk to don’t have contact with him. Granted, he’ll probably ask me about church and homosexuality, and I’ll get lectured at, at the least. Decisions, decisions. We’ll see, I suppose.

Man, I only have 47 pages left in my book, but I’m trying to wait. It’s not working, but my last summer course ends on the 8th. It’s an internet course and suffice it to say, I’m horribly behind. I’ve just had too many nice distractions. ^_^

I’m probably going to Vegas next weekend, if Candace is there and wants to house me. If not, I’ll still probably go down and see if I can stay at my Aunt’s house. I want to see Candy, Jessica, and Robin before school gets in the normal swing of things. Robin is my cello teacher from high school, by the way. Candace and Jessica are my best friends from Loyola University New Orleans. I’m trying to be thorough. We’ll see if it’s working when I get people asking me about stuff. Oh, and school shopping. They'll be plenty of that too.

Tracie, you’ll be happy to know that I’m excited about you being the new cello professor all of a sudden. Don’t know why, just am. We’ll have a fun year, regardless of all the drama we’ll have to put up with. We music majors are great at drama. My choir award for last year? Yeah… it was “The drama, drama, drama in the music building award.” Oh how amusing. I did know all the latest drama/gossip though. Don’t know how that worked, but it did. I guess it’s from being in the voice and string programs and being close to the choir and woodwinds teacher. I’m interested to see the new dynamics of the program at SUU.

I get amused at the smallest things lately. ^_^