mormon gay article

I'm tired, and it's been an emotional day, one I may or may not discuss at a later date.

However, I feel like I must show and talk about this article and the discussion posted on the lds website. The links are as follows:

Salt Lake Tribune article

Discussion on lds.org

I really can't imagine that homosexuality is a condition simply in this life. I feel like until I have no being that it is a big part of me. Besides the whole physical aspect, there is some spiritual attraction as well. Being around my significant other really makes me feel spiritually completed, even without physical contact.

I don't understand how people are expected to throw away their life and what they imagine it to be in as far as happiness is concerned, just for 'church doctorines'. As much as it is said that the church is and has been the same because truth does not change, I do not agree. There is no way that I really can.

I love how people with homosexual attractions are equated to those with physical handicaps as far as church callings. There are some you cannot have without being married. What I'm seeing from this is that regardless of the amount of effort that people with same-gender attraction give, if they cannot be attracted to a person to marry, they can't hold these positions. I suppose I shouldn't be suprised due to the fact that females can't hold multiple positions because of being unable to hold the priesthood. Perhaps us homosexuals just have enough female in us that we can't be trusted with the special positions.

How is it that divine revelation seems like a trump card? What about this horrible thing in your past? divine revelation. Why can't we change this? No divine revelation. I just can't believe that one person would be he one recieving revelation for a group as diverse as the church. It's just hard to understand.

How can some legal rights be ok for those not in a sexual gay relationship, but those that are should get none? That is a really big issue. Just because people tenderly explore themselves in every aspect with another should not come into play that definatively. It makes me shake my head. That and it was also said that legal rights aren't appropriate because they're rights reserved for traditional marriages. There are just way too many shades of gray, per say. That along with contradiction is rather bothersome.

The idea of not being able to bring my partner around because it's not good or the family and the like really hurts. I want to be as much a part of the family as anyone else. That and the satement where aadoption shouldn't be available to gays because a family needs a husband and wife bothers me too. How is it, then, children are not taken away from families that are strictly one parent? They aren't punished because they were in a good situation to start with, regardless of their reasons for being out of it. I should be able to adopt a child on my own, regardless of whether I have a partner or not. And, two parents are better than one, regardless of gender.

My minds a little fuzzy, so I hope i was sufficently coherent in writing.

I'm aprehesive tonight because there was something that I really wanted to do, but I avoided it because I thought that the outcome would be a way that I wouldn't enjoy it. I eventually did it, but the outcome was the same. I'm just scared that this is going to turn into a pattern. I hope that sleep with cleanse some of my worries about today.