The day... oy

Ok, today = seriously bad.

Let me preface with the fact that yesterday, I met with my cooperating teacher. It was an... awkward meeting, and I didn't exactly like the school, and I didn't exactly like the cooperating teacher, but I was being positive, and I was totally going to make the best of it.

My car also has been just stopping every so often in the past month. And stalling for no reason while driving in the middle of the road is NOT the funnest thing ever. So, I took it into a shop that day.

And now to today (and yes, I'm counting it as today, even though it's 2 AM), Well, I woke up at about 1 PM to a voice mail on my phone. Apparently, my cooperating teacher decided that she wasn't a fan of me, or something else, because she canceled my placement. Great. It makes me so happy when I was supposed to start on Monday.

Then I called the mechanic to see what was happening with my car. Well, there is about 15 things wrong with it. The three major things that HAVE to be repaired immediately it'll cost at least $800- $1,000. Considering it's such an old and cheap car, it's really not worth putting that much money into it, because it'll probably just die soon anyway. My dad and the mechanic agree.

So, now, even if I get a placement, which the clinical practice coordinator is trying hard to find one, I don't know how I'll be able to get there and back. And I've already poured all my money into the semester, because my financial aid ran out. So, I'm just having a grand 'ole time.

Today's been hard. I've cried my fair share, and I've just tried to keep everything good, focused, and real. Things will work out. I just have to hope. All I can say is that my eyes hurt and that causes me a headache. It just makes it all the better.

At least I still have my job.

preping to be cautious

You know, it's been ages since I've wrote anything... you'd think I'd just decide to do it every so often, but alas. I am one lazy beast.

So, I meet with my cooperating teacher on Thursday morning... I'm all sorts of nervous, and I can only hope that everything will go well. And who knows if I'll even enjoy the experience. Good grief, why must I freak out so? Eh, I suppose it'll be what it will. At least I'll know if and how much I like teaching. It's silly, but I wish I was in New Orleans for this part. It seems... safer than Utah. I feel like I'll be going in trying to hide anything not Mormon, which is annoying. That and I don't exactly like the Mormon church right now, so I'll probably be biting my tongue every five freaking seconds.

Oh, and in case I haven't said it before, I'm student teaching at a high school, doing choir.

I really like my new environment up here though. Some of the new people I work with kick ass up here. Yeah, I totally miss a few people from my old walmart, but I've already been out drinking at a bar with a CSM (a kick ass one!), and another up here is obsessed with SoN too! Generally, I feel wanted and needed up here. It totally beats having a store manager who seemed to not exactly like me, and being stressed every single day I went into work. Oh, there's stress, but it's different. I actually feel wanted and liked by pretty much everyone. And it's so nice to have walmart where there are a good deal of non-mormons and jack mormons, where I feel comfortable being me. I love that.

And, Bradin's friends are generally awesome too. That makes for niceness, for sure. ^_^

I love free time/video game time. And eating out. Mmmm... I've grown quite fond of PF Changs/Olive Garden/Ottavios since I've come up here.

Here's to next week when I go back to having no time. And a week after that, Bradin starts a show, so I'll pretty much NEVER see him. Geez, it's going to suck.

Peace!




...They're not going to get us...