The day

I have an interesting day coming up. That day would be the 30th. Why so interesting? Let me start at the beginning.

So, I was working at Wal-mart about two and a half months ago. Nothing spectacular, except Susan Green, mother of a violinist my age and old family acquaintance, asked me if I was willing to play cello in a church service. I hesitantly said I would, seeing how I didn’t really have a reason not to. I like to think that I’m willing to give service, even though the lds church and I aren’t exactly on the same terms at the moment. *cough* Anyway, She sees me at Wal-mart again and asked me if the 30th worked (I could have sworn she said 29th, but it is the 30th, especially because it’s a Sunday). That was about a month and a half before the actual date, which is really odd for me because I’ve never been asked to play that far in advance.

The next thing that happened isn’t so much a surprise, but I started reading someone’s blog and we communicated. Anyway, he decided to come and see me play. We have a lot in common, so I’m really excited to meet him.

Then, after my rehearsal with the pianist, she threw me a complete surprise. I’m kind of freaked about it really. It turns out that this Sunday, the one planned way in advance, is the homecoming of an old friend. Josh Cox. One of the first people who I told I was gay to. The first guy I had a crush on. Yes. I had a crush on him. I was completely oblivious at the time, but looking back, I really understood why I was never satisfied with our relationship. Some of my actions make me laugh now because I understand why I did them. I was just looking for attention. Classic school girl. I really did enjoy our all night choir trip talks though.

Needless to say, I’m extremely nervous and excited. I’m going through the whole fight/flight response thing. It’s just odd. Thankfully, I don’t have a crush on the guy anymore. I didn’t when he left.

In a way, I feel like God wanted this to happen. I feel like I happened upon the blog because he led me to it. I feel like he had a hand in setting up the day that I will play and Josh will have his homecoming. It’s just really cool.